inspiration

i want to lean into the wind, to walk in the snow and the sand and the leaves. to lie in the small of your back. to feel your heart beat with mine. to smell you once you've left. to argue with you and win. i want to feel your kiss on my forehead before i fall asleep.
i want to be the girl in the ballet shoes and vintage dress. i want to be as perfect as you think i am. i want to never make you sad. i want to prove to myself, one time, that i am worthy. i want to catch a falling feather and hold my breath on bridges. i want to be one of those girls, the ones who having rockinghorse dreams and are always dressed for summer.
i want to learn ballet and play the violin and sketch on everything i see. i want to have a secret code with my best friend and cry when she cries. i want to break my arm to see what it feels like. i want to not care what people think.
i want to live in paris and eat just macaroons for a week. i want to wear french knickers and camisoles to bed. i want to press flowers and have butterfly cutouts papering my bathroom.

we made amends but nothing's mended

this paranoia is taking over me

what to think
what to do
ask the audience or phone a friend?

lump in my throat
can't eat sleep speak think
the spotlight fades
that was the wrong answer

hard to believe
i'm left unsure
scared scarred still
vulnerable

Hair

I'm in desperate need of a haircut but I can't decide what to do. Right now I feel like cutting it all off and getting one similar to Silver on 90210, but other times I lean more towards a choppy long bob a la Anne Hathaway or Alexa Chung, or I might grow it really long, or just get a trim...
I need advice!

It's alright, the camera's talking

New jacket and hoody (H&M) and old dress I recently found :)

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Mum's cardi thing (vintage Jigsaw)

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Vintage Jigsaw Blazer, skirt I made, Sister's hoody

fiiinally another post!

I'm on my holidays now for 3 weeks so hopefully I'll be posting more often now.
I went shopping yesterday, only went to like 3 shops and spent over £100! I have no idea how I did it, if I'm honest. I didn't even get into Cabot Circus (so no Topshop, UO or Zara) because we were too tired!

Here are the things I bought, I will try to take a couple of pictures later for you but I'm in bed with a bit of a hangover right now...

Skirt- Miss Selfridge

(this isn't the actual jacket that I bought because H&M don't have it on the website but it's quite similar)

I also bought; a huge dark grey hoody which is the softest thing in the world! I honestly am in love with it, Max Factor False Lash Effect Mascara (£3 off at Boots, oh yeah!), Bourjouis concealer and my friends birthday present (a blue bow bag from Accessorize)

Change in blog format!

As you may have noticed I haven't posted in a week! I've had GCSEs, parents evenings and coursework deadlines keeping me fully occupied. I have decided however to change my blog format, I will still try to post everyday but chances are I won't manage it for the next few months.. I will still do day-themed posts but I am also going to start doing posts about other things as well.
If you have any ideas on what I should include in my updated blog, please can you suggest them in the comments :)
xxx

Facial Friday Catchup- Masks

I recently bought a clay face mask from Botanics, and I tried it out for the first time yesterday. It was quite good but it made skin feel almost painfully tight afterwards. What I really want is a blackhead mask, I've tried the strips and the facewashes so hopefully there is a mask out there for me :) do you guys have an favourite face masks/recommendations?